School starts up tomorrow. I am not ready for it. I will not be ready for it until my alarm goes off that morning before I drag myself to school. And, I should probably look at my schedule again so I know where I am expected to be at what time. Meh.
I think 2011 went entirely too fast. At lot has happened. Some, I expected. My grandmother has deteriorated significantly over the past year. I got into the college I wanted. No significant family drama involving my dad’s relatives. But not everything went as expected. I had a group that presented without me instead of waiting a few minutes or trying to figure out why I was running late. I walked in as they finished the presentation. I was NOT happy. Luckily, the professor allowed me to present solo a few days later, after I had a chance to calm down. A guy asked me out. I was not particularly interested in getting involved in a relationship at that point in time, but ultimately decided to take the risk. I am still debating on whether or not it was worth it. He and I are still friends, but I do not think we will be much more than that. There are some serious obstacles that need to be dealt with, and I do not think he is interested in that. I wish things were different, but he made his choice.
But the good and bad and the predictable and unexpected are what makes our live unique and worth living. I try to find the bright points or the humor in things, because if I do not, things will get dark very quickly. And I do not like being in that kind of darkness.
So, 2012 starts like a blank piece of paper. I have no idea what to expect from this year. I can only hope that there is more good in the year than bad. We shall see.